So Im suppose to come home in only two short weeks, but I just don't think im quite ready. I really adore the city of London and the thought of going home makes me a bit sad. But do not get me wrong I am so excited to come home and spend some quality time with my family. But if it weren't for them I don't think I would be to happy. Also I am looking forward to getting some southern California sunshine! I can't want to see all my sweet cousins, aunts, uncles, grandparents, and friends.
going to miss
all the lovely old buildings
my wonderful church, Hillsong United
shopping at Loop, Liberty's, and the ever so amazing street markets.
taking the buses and getting to read my bible and crochet on them.
all the great places I can get desert from
always having something to do
dressing for cold weather
charming British guys ;)
going to dance at enterprise on Friday nights
the lush green land
diverse types of food
my small group
the English countryside
being able to see a play last minute
the ability to travel to other countries with little preparation
the heath by my house
O and so much more. Goodness, God has taught me so much through this trip. I can't even explain it. Although I don't want to come home quite yet I am still so grateful for this opportunity to travel. Words cannot describe how blessed I feel to experience what I have. I now have a new dream. A dream that I never really thought I would have...
I think I would like to live in England for a couple years maybe 2-3. I never really thought I would want to leave the states. (It just goes to show how much I like this country because I sure love the US) I don't think I would ever want to live here permanently but it would definitely be amazing to live here for a couple years when I'm young. I have always wanted to travel the world but have never thought I would want to live in another country unless the Lord called me onto the mission field.
Hmmm... I don't know if I would be able to handle a cold winter in England. But more importantly I would miss my family way too much. Of course I would be able to visit them and they could visit me but still that would be really, really hard for me. I am just wondering if the Lord has this dream for me as well. Only time will tell. I can't even imagine that dream becoming a reality. I mean it's really tough to leave the country. But you never now, God sets things in place and can make anything happen.
So anyways thats whats on my heart right now. Quite suprising, right? I mean coming from the girl who at five wouldn't be left from her mother or father for over an hour. You know, the girl at ten who cried like a baby when her mother was going to go to New York for a week. (I cried so much she just took me with her.)
But then by the time I was fifteen I became a bit more independent and went to Samoa with out the family.
And now here I am, twenty, thousands miles away from them (it isn't easy, but I can handle it.)
Maybe at 25 I will being living in England....
I wonder what my parents are thinking as they read this. Don't worry Mom and Dad it's just a dream. The chances of it acctually happening are slim to nothing. I know, I dream pretty big.
Well Happy Friday!!!
Miss you guys
xo
-esther
2 comments:
I'll tell you what your did is thinking, "follow your dreams, sweetie, as long as God is in them, they are my dreams too. I do not fear because whatever door God open for you, that is the door you must go through."
I think your dream is wonderful, why can't it really come true? I have learned that I take home with me wherever I go and the most imporant One never leaves your side and gives you an even larger family. So hold on to your dream, Esther it can be a reality.
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